Melancholies

 Does it heal or act as a temporary relief? If it was not for the drugs would I still be here? Would I be able to write this for you? Objectively, no. They say drugs, any kinds of drugs from cigarette to lean or heroine, will eventually kill you, some more slowly than others. But on the other side of the coin, its the drugs that will let me go on and try to leave my mark on the world before leaving it. Its just temporary relief though if I have to be honest. Its just a hit for an hour or two of sanity to be able to calm the screams in my head and focus on my legacy. Yes, this anthology is one of them, and yes it does take a toll on my sanity from times to times. But Melancholies is the least of the worries for which I know that no drugs can heal, if anything can ever heal. Again, I reiterate my question, Should my search for sanity be that destructive?

"Deliver me into my fate If I'm alone I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you"  Corey Taylor Funny isn't it? How this whole reading adventure has been a rollercoaster taking you down to the darkest abyss of my mind and often times showing a glimpse of light. It was not supposed to be the case, it was not the intention I set out writing this. But again, here I am taking you to a new place, a new perspective and a new direction. I feel like a madman writing this piece, laughing and tearing up at the same time, but I would not say that I am playing in the field of insanity, it is just something more that is quite incomprehensible for me, as such I apologies for not being able to fully explain everything using words.  This is a revival. This is a second breath. Is it my last breath though? It is scary. I have never been this scared before to explore the recess of my mind. I have never been this scared to stay alone with my thoughts. But the voice in me keeps calling